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Most people cannot endure fasting. <\/em> <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

That is why they negotiate with the menu.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

I was at one of these Christmas dinners <\/p>\n\n\n\n

A veteran marriage, the lady began interrogating the gentleman, and I saw no point (it was impossible not to hear); he was never rude, but he was fed up.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My flash was: why doesn’t she let him do what he wants? \ud83d\ude2e\u200d\ud83d\udca8 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I put on my helmet and left \ud83c\udfcd\ufe0f<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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My dears, I always speak to you from my conscious shadow, not from ego nor from the heart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Freedom is my religion, but there are heresies I do not wish to exorcise\u2014yet being coupled is not the default of happiness; that, I do not buy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dear ppl, I choose the void over toxic filler\u2014avoiding dramas, emotional issues, and that chronic fatigue of “maintaining” something that does not flow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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You ask for those heresies? Haha<\/p>\n\n\n\n

No, I do not wish to make any part of my religion.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I want to keep the one I choose as my favorite sin: consumable, conscious, reversible.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Non-negotiable: my freedom. <\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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And I will quote Epicurus: “moderate pleasures that do not enslave.”<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I authorize my desires.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m just iced over. Like a glass left too long in the freezer. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Like a vampire \ud83d\ude0f<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m the kind that doesn’t kill the host. Just takes a sip.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Leaves him dizzy, confused… wanting more.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Honestly? That might be worse \ud83e\udd2b<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But remember, the bite is consensual \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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This is not libertinism\u2014you cannot tell an Olympic swimmer to dive into a kiddie pool, that is suffocation\u2026  \ud83d\ude12<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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My mind operates in constant high resolution: I read patterns in finances, in people, in ontological concepts\u2026 and when I try to connect with someone who functions in standard definition, there is no real dialogue possible.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It becomes an infernal monologue while I pretend to listen\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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Let me summarize Csikszentmihalyi’s flow theory:  \ud83e\udd13<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Intelligence without congruence = noise  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Options without criteria = dispersion  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Emotion without framework = volatility  (e.g., Never local impulse) \ud83e\udddb\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2640\ufe0f<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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So: Keep archiving if it doesn’t level up\u2014no settling for silly moves, and I don\u2019t think apologies for it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My friends say that I am scary sharp because the way I turned the  whole romantic drama into\u2026 a spreadsheet \u2620\ufe0f<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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I believe that when two minds are equally sharp, they do not seek each other, but recognize one another\u2014they do not promise, they calibrate..  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Does another mind equal to mine exist? Maybe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

That \u201cmaybe\u201d is the word used only by those who already have the winning cards face down on the table.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The rest need full stops\u2026 I can leave it in suspension, and still control the air..<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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I even do not believe in the half-orange theory, because why should I accept that \u201cI am a half\u201d as absolute truth? \u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And if there were an absolute theory about fruits, I want to be the cherry on top \ud83d\udc8b<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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In alchemy, it lies in the order:  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mind + Aesthetics + Narrative Power.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Forever\u2019s a gamble anyway.. \ud83e\udd71  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I mean, I\u2019m not losing people, they failing their audition.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And yeah\u2014mystery’s sexier than a body. The not-knowing keeps the room warm.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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The mystery\u2019s not a vice. It\u2019s just\u2026 oxygen.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Me? I\u2019m the joke they don’t get.. And still you don\u2019t got it \ud83d\ude08<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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For me flirting with someone have to be also flirting with myself\u2014because I\u2019m daring them to match my speed, and if they can’t, I\u2019m already gone.. it’s just physics..<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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This isn\u2019t rebellion\u2014it’s just knowing how loud my own heartbeat is (as if it beat), and when someone else wants to turn down the volume, I just… leave\u2014 no regrets.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Haha I\u2019m not looking for a subscription plan. And I\u2019m certaining not here to auto-renew.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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It means passion can’t just be flame of desire alone.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fire needs fuel and oxygen\u2014flirting and timing\u2014without 1 of them even the hottest flame fizzles.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

My new philosophy says:  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cPeople don\u2019t question gods. They question threats.\u201d<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Gods don\u2019t need validation\u2014they just exist..  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vampires don’t chase the sun \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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Every \u201cI love you\u201d is just recycled air. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

And sex? After two thousand years, it’s basically yoga with fangs.. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

But a soul\u2014that’s different. It’s the memory \ud83e\ude78  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

And maybe… that’s why some vampires choose to starve. Because even boredom is better than nostalgia.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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That\u2019s not cold\u2014that\u2019s mercy. I starve myself so no one else has to bleed. Because the second I explain why I ghost, they twist it: I\u2019m playing games. I led me on. No. I\u2019m just done.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

And instead of saying I\u2019m done out loud\u2014which starts the circus\u2014I vanish.  <\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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Drama needs two people.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I just leave the stage.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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I\u2019ll be your d\u00e9j\u00e0 vu\u2014if it works for both of us \ud83d\udd25 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bye now! \ud83e\udee6<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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Most people cannot endure fasting.   That is why they negotiate with the menu. I was at one of these Christmas dinners  A veteran marriage, the lady began interrogating the gentleman, and I saw no point (it was impossible not to hear); he was never rude, but he was fed up.   My flash was: why doesn’t she let him do what he wants? \ud83d\ude2e\u200d\ud83d\udca8  I put on my helmet and left \ud83c\udfcd\ufe0f My dears, I always speak to you from my conscious shadow, not from ego nor from the heart. Freedom is my religion, but there are heresies I do not wish to exorcise\u2014yet being coupled is not the default of happiness; that, I do not buy. Dear ppl, I choose the void over toxic filler\u2014avoiding dramas, emotional issues, and that chronic fatigue of “maintaining” something that does not flow. You ask for those heresies? Haha No, I do not wish to make any part of my religion.   I want to keep the one I choose as my favorite sin: consumable, conscious, reversible.   Non-negotiable: my freedom.  And I will quote Epicurus: “moderate pleasures that do not enslave.” I authorize my desires. I\u2019m just iced over. Like a glass left too long in the freezer.  Like a vampire \ud83d\ude0f I\u2019m the kind that doesn’t kill the host. Just takes a sip.   Leaves him dizzy, confused… wanting more.   Honestly? That might be worse \ud83e\udd2b But remember, the bite is consensual \ud83d\ude09 This is not libertinism\u2014you cannot tell an Olympic swimmer to dive into a kiddie pool, that is suffocation\u2026  \ud83d\ude12 My mind operates in constant high resolution: I read patterns in finances, in people, in ontological concepts\u2026 and when I try to connect with someone who functions in standard definition, there is no real dialogue possible.   It becomes an infernal monologue while I pretend to listen\u2026 Let me summarize Csikszentmihalyi’s flow theory:  \ud83e\udd13 – Intelligence without congruence = noise   – Options without criteria = dispersion   – Emotion without framework = volatility  (e.g., Never local impulse) \ud83e\udddb\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2640\ufe0f So: Keep archiving if it doesn’t level up\u2014no settling for silly moves, and I don\u2019t think apologies for it. My friends say that I am scary sharp because the way I turned the  whole romantic drama into\u2026 a spreadsheet \u2620\ufe0f I believe that when two minds are equally sharp, they do not seek each other, but recognize one another\u2014they do not promise, they calibrate..   Does another mind equal to mine exist? Maybe. That \u201cmaybe\u201d is the word used only by those who already have the winning cards face down on the table.   The rest need full stops\u2026 I can leave it in suspension, and still control the air.. I even do not believe in the half-orange theory, because why should I accept that \u201cI am a half\u201d as absolute truth? \u00a0 And if there were an absolute theory about fruits, I want to be the cherry on top \ud83d\udc8b In alchemy, it lies in the order:   Mind + Aesthetics + Narrative Power. Forever\u2019s a gamble anyway.. \ud83e\udd71   I mean, I\u2019m not losing people, they failing their audition. And yeah\u2014mystery’s sexier than a body. The not-knowing keeps the room warm. The mystery\u2019s not a vice. It\u2019s just\u2026 oxygen.   Me? I\u2019m the joke they don’t get.. And still you don\u2019t got it \ud83d\ude08 For me flirting with someone have to be also flirting with myself\u2014because I\u2019m daring them to match my speed, and if they can’t, I\u2019m already gone.. it’s just physics.. This isn\u2019t rebellion\u2014it’s just knowing how loud my own heartbeat is (as if it beat), and when someone else wants to turn down the volume, I just… leave\u2014 no regrets. Haha I\u2019m not looking for a subscription plan. And I\u2019m certaining not here to auto-renew. It means passion can’t just be flame of desire alone.   Fire needs fuel and oxygen\u2014flirting and timing\u2014without 1 of them even the hottest flame fizzles. My new philosophy says:   \u201cPeople don\u2019t question gods. They question threats.\u201d Gods don\u2019t need validation\u2014they just exist..   Vampires don’t chase the sun \ud83d\ude09 Every \u201cI love you\u201d is just recycled air.  And sex? After two thousand years, it’s basically yoga with fangs..  But a soul\u2014that’s different. It’s the memory \ud83e\ude78   And maybe… that’s why some vampires choose to starve. Because even boredom is better than nostalgia. That\u2019s not cold\u2014that\u2019s mercy. I starve myself so no one else has to bleed. Because the second I explain why I ghost, they twist it: I\u2019m playing games. I led me on. No. I\u2019m just done.   And instead of saying I\u2019m done out loud\u2014which starts the circus\u2014I vanish.   Drama needs two people.   I just leave the stage. 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