My readers, this week I made one of those spontaneous exceptions that change the flow of the monotonous week, and today I took a day off from work to recover and to write.
I want to share with you how I’ve been feeling these days. Since yesterday, I’ve had a really difficult migraine to handle, but I’m better now.
First, I must tell you that no one should form an opinion about another person. Don’t judge the story by the chapter you walked in on. You know, it’s unfair how this world is filled with prejudices and pride that determine behaviors, which are later assumed as ‘personality,’ and people hide behind it to justify their actions.
Since I started writing to you, I’ve tried to offer you my insights so that you can compare them with your perspectives. You know, I’ve always presented myself as a strong and independent girl, but recently, I discovered that I’m also vulnerable, just like any girl. you know..
I really admire a man’s ability to avoid that vulnerability..
No one who has met me remains the same after interacting with me.
I’ve always tried to leave a positive mark on anyone who has known me. Once, I stopped to look at my past and made a kind of checklist of all the incredible things I have and have achieved. I understood that one should not want things but want the things they have.
You know, many people spend their lives wishing for this and that, but they never stop to see this and that, which they already have.
Many people think that having fame is my main focus, but it’s not, my dear. The main focus is to be marvelous, you know, to be our best version and share it with someone who has also worked on their best version. But, ‘am, you know, I’m not necessarily talking about interactions of attraction.. I’m talking about any person with a personal title (not academic) with whom you are going to interact.
I learned this lesson last year..You know, don’t live in fear.. live to the fullest of your potential.
When I looked back at my past, I didn’t victimize myself for the negative things that happened. On the contrary, I was thankful cause I learned a lot, and the process made me better.
Once a guy told me that my problem is that I see everyone as good and perceive everything as very simple. At that moment, I wondered if that could be a bad thing as he argued. Today, I answer myself and tell myself that if I hadn’t ignored all the rules that limited him from seeing the world the way I do, I would never have become the person I am today.
On my journey, till today, I’ve learned that reality is sometimes a fantasy.. cause, you know, with a single phrase, we could make disappear what none of us wants to lose.
It also amuses me how people talk about the love train and romanticize it haha..
In any case, if the love train existed, well, any locomotive has several cars, so the train must have passed several times to pick up people. If that’s its function, it means it passes more than once, unless when it passed, you got on and have been changing cars for a long time, learning to explore it haha
It’s funny! I don’t know for sure, but ‘am you know, I enjoy philosophizing about any topic that can be questioned haha
I’ve also learned that arrogance leads nowhere, and humility doesn’t mean poverty. A smile brings warmth to anyone and subconsciously brightens their day.. kindness should become our first daily habit..
Anyway, many times we disguise the concept of elegance to boost our ego, but the best clothing is what we wear for our soul.
I learned to speak my mind and receive a response for it, whether it was constructive or destructive. I never extend it to an argument cause it could turn into a cycle of back-and-forths that only poison the soul.
I’ve always liked debates, but I’ve always preferred those that don’t involve emotions.
I learned that the best decisions are made alone. I don’t consider myself the smartest, but I know that with some people, I have to be fierce. We live in a jungle with different levels of social behavior, but in all, there are many individuals trying to steal what you’ve built or take advantage of it.
I learned not to be an option or a question mark. Don’t project their fears onto someone with excuses.
However, I learned that these people are going through the process I went through, and with a passive attitude, I should show them, but not stay to work it out with them. I’m not a zen, I’m not a Project Manager (girls who love guys in the gray area to, according to them, save them), and I’m not a guru; I’m just Kim, and each process is different.
Once, I was in that role, but I’ll never repeat it because it was a reprocess, and I suffered in the course. I believe one shouldn’t sacrifice feelings and time for someone who wouldn’t even bet on themselves. I learned that having empathy for someone who wants to improve is okay, and a person with that attitude can be helped. Still, investing resources in someone standing on and clinging to the gray line is not my specialization.
I learned that risks are like colors, many of them.. You know, I learned to evaluate them, and this will only help us be more accurate in the result. Life is a complete equation, filled with emotions..
Someday I met someone, and I particularly thank him, who liked to eat ‘Chimichurri,’ quite funny, by the way… and he made me see that it’s not wrong to deal with our vulnerable side, accept that fragility, and enjoy the process of reassembling the little figurine if it cracks or breaks completely.
I learned to love humanity; I learned to love the mistakes we all make every day.
I learned that making mistakes is beautiful and to love imperfection more than the illusion of perfection, that having fear is cool but even cooler is facing it, you know, feeling that life can be taken to the limit, and that’s being alive, feeling it like water slipping through your hands.
I learned that it’s more satisfying to ask for forgiveness than to forgive, that no one should trample on morality, that the price of love equals respect and admiration. I learned that I am no more than anyone else, and no one is more than me, that everyone has something special, and that is the essence of each one, even though I don’t understand why everyone follows trends and everyone wants to look alike or clone themselves, losing their own voice and the quality of being critical.
I learned that my greatest threat to the world is that as long as I can breathe, I will continue finding motivation to get up every time I stumble over a stone because I decided to shine like a diamond even when I have some flaws. Finally, I tell you that so far, my best lesson has been never to regret something I’ve done, accepting the consequences of the process because when mistakes weigh on you, they become chains of the soul. They say the worst suffering is that of the heart, and no, my friends, I have seen people suffer with the soul.
Perhaps in the future, we will face another difficult situation that keeps us awake, maybe not, but that, my friends, you know, is part of the meaning of being alive. And someday, when we have gray hair, we will tell stories to our grandchildren, or through some book express them.
Remember,
‘It’s nice to be someone’s hero, but even nicer to learn to be your own hero.’
‘The first love of your life is yourself.. if you’ve lost yourself, return to it. The second love will find you. And the third love, you can decide whether to have it or not.’
Bye now!
