Hey my dear readers, I’m back 😊
This time away, almost 2 months, helped me think about many things..
At the beginning of my meditation these months, I said,
“I’m not a difficult girl, you just have to be a secure person, the rest will be done by nature, and I get along very well with nature.”
The mind is like a parachute, it’s useless if you don’t open it, and every situation we face in life is like a jump.
Personally, I’ve seen how people fear new ideas, what a shock! I fear old ideas haha
Several beings contacted me and asked me to change a bit the way I wrote, they explicitly asked me to include certain topics, for me it was like a shock cuz my mind had never opened to the topics they asked me to write about.
I didn’t know how to respond to that, so I took these months to do my own research, talk to other people, plus, meditate on the things I was facing and also include what they asked me to include in my writings.
When I started dealing with all this, I first talked to several friends who were immersed in these topics with the purpose of learning from them, they recommended some neutral books, everything added up to make the decision to start writing again and add these topics in each writing, cuz as I said once and repeat if I don’t know what I’m talking about I’m not going to write it because my ethics tell me that I should only write about what I know by experience or because I researched it and it resonated in my heart, that is, it made sense.
We must accept that we are evolving beings, well I’ve mentioned it in other blog posts…
We were taught that life is of “x” way, for decades within the century in which we are (depending on each culture) we were formed with the values and principles that both in homes and schools constituted as the “correct method”, and there I was, living within those precepts that formed my way of thinking in these almost 3 decades of life.
In these years I saw how they were changing and accepting other things that were taboo in the generation of my parents, and I was assimilating it without much problem, because when you grow up and they tell you that you should accept this and the other, you learn that life can also be of “y” way.
Once I told you that what I love most is living, and that the second thing is learning, because living without any novelty doesn’t excite me, and personally passion is what moves my life, there’s nothing in this life that I don’t give passion and loyalty to, otherwise it doesn’t make sense to do it or have it.
Opening my mind has allowed me to write again, it’s like I’ve gone through a storm and finally there’s a clear sky with a rainbow. 🌈
A little while ago on my social networks I told them that I’m not an angel but I’m not a demon either, but if I had to define myself within this context, I would do it as a fallen angel, considering that the purest thing I have are my intentions which I try to have just and genuine, I couldn’t say they are good because the road to hell is paved with good intentions.
I would consider myself a fallen angel because I’m not so good to be accepted in heaven (try to be) but I can’t accept being told what I should do cuz I have my own criteria.
Remember this that I will tell you, there are only 2 paths, if you fall to temptation, you know perfectly well which path you are choosing, however, I am a firm believer that for some it is difficult not to succumb to temptation, once in another writing I told them “if you can’t resist temptation, surrender to it”, today I tell them “temptation is only what your conscience tells you is incorrect, look at your steps, each one we take leaves a mark”.
I didn’t return with more wisdom because as you know, every time I write the “brainstorm” comes from a source that even I myself cannot identify, however, if I did return with a different perspective of everything in general, more critical and neutral.
Here’s something personal, as you know, pappa has never lived in the same country as me but in a call we had this week he told me
“Kim, you’ve always had a star like I’ve had, and that’s why you achieve everything you want, but life taught me that we must think with the heart and not with the head, and I want you to learn that lesson now and not when you have my age”
Pappa has changed a lot since last December, and of course I think I will apply that advice cause I know that the best decisions come from following intuition and not from reason.
But pappa failed in something, I don’t have a star, I am a star, a while ago I wrote:
“I am a shooting star, you can see me grazing with my dust your sky, but that closeness will never be enough, if you fall in love with this comet, cross your fingers that within my trajectory the next time your planet will be my destination.” -kimv-
Nice, isn’t it?, my poetic side has flourished in the last months hehe 🤭💫
Once I read that
“what you regret from your past is a chain that you will pull for eternity until you face it even if it hurts”
These months away from my blog I was able to face something that I had always avoided, and from then on I realized that I have finally been free from the same pattern that was chasing me, what was that pattern, you will wonder, well it was repeating the same person who had done me a lot of harm in every other person with whom I tried to establish a bond, opening my mind and allowing myself to face it allowed me to identify that I was attracting the same person but in different bodies.
I know that what I’m telling you is very deep, and maybe a little complicated to understand, but let me explain, I have a guru from India, he has taught me to deal with my energies, he helped me understand that when you identify the pattern that makes you repeat the cycle it’s like finding the pin that will burst the balloon figuratively speaking, then, in this case, I have always known what I want in life, more than my career, more than professional success, which as you know is what encompasses almost the 95% of my daily thoughts, I won’t tell you what it is, but it’s related to my “Nemesis” which in this case I identified and managed to inflate a new balloon from zero, in a figurative sense but funny isn’t? haha
Returning to who we originally were, before starting the confrontation with unknown beings that suddenly begin to matter to us, is difficult, but not impossible.
I just started with a new goal that allows me to measure my physical and mental capacity, I started training for triathlon, which is keeping me full of expectations, and it’s serving as therapy now that I’m starting from scratch, without negative memories, without resentments towards anyone, without bitterness, it’s helping me to detoxify my body and my mind.
My friends in general, whenever they want to flee from memories due to disappointments, from any topic, emotional, work, etc, any memory they don’t want to face, they avoid it with alcohol, I on my part decided to face and balance with a healthy vice “discipline”, go that it can be your worst enemy, but as the saying goes “make your worst enemy your best friend” 😉
They tell me I’m crazy for doing this, but they don’t know that I’m fully prepared, I’m in a good stage of my life, where I have reached all my professional goals, where I feel like I’ve passed the “GTA” of life, and that I need an experience that takes me to a new limit, however, I warn them, this is not for anyone, talking to the ear of discipline can deal with risks, as it is, I always answer them that motivation comes from reasons that they could not understand because each person carries their process of understanding at their own pace, the comfort for them has a different meaning for me and well my rebellious spirit helps haha
Opening the mind is not something that happens overnight, but it allows all people to experience it in different ways, the amount of doses applies differently to each one, I just clarify and with this I close, that accepting it and including it allows me a different freedom, remember that respect and tolerance allows us to live with it, read my words and assimilate them.
I hope this has helped you a lot, so we’ll talk next week.
Bye now!💋
